How lockdown gave me time and so much more

Hello! And a massive warm welcome to my new website, new Etsy shop, new career … well, life overhaul really! Pull up a chair and make yourself a hot beverage – it is wonderful to have you along with me for the ride.  

I have finally taken the plunge and decided to do something for myself. Crumbs! What a strange new world this is, and one that I never thought I would explore.

From a young age, I was always good at organising! So, programmes like ‘The Home Edit’ and ‘Tidying Up with Marie Kondo’ give me life! 😀 That was what I was good at! Well, what can you do with that? This is when I discovered Events Management. YES! Organisation to the absolute max! Long hours, hard physical & mental work, but such a rewarding industry to work in! I still LOVE it and have great appreciation for anyone in the hospitality industry.

However, there has always been a niggling in the back of my mind.

“Am I good at this?”

“Should I be doing something else?”

“Is this worth the stress?”

Then came along the thought that I listened to the most…

“Do I see myself doing this for the rest of my life?”

That one is hard to ignore, and I’m sure many of you have felt this way too.

As someone who has suffered with anxiety for much of my life, even thinking about doing something different and moving out of my comfort zone was a big no-no! And then, the dreaded lockdown happened!

Yes, the shock was immense.

Yes, it left me (as well as everyone else!) scared and wondering what would happen.

And YES, I was worried about what effect this would have on my mental health.

BUT! Something amazing happened. I had time! For once, I had time to sit back, reflect, question my worries and finally go through with facing my anxiety head on and getting the help I needed. Time to really put all my energy into an amazing CBT course with the help of a fab team over at Talking Therapies.

I can honestly say I am in the best place mentally that I have ever felt in my life. I won’t say I don’t have tough days, because that would be a massive lie! But I know how to cope.

With this newfound confidence in myself and the tools I needed to confront my anxieties, I began to wonder how my life would pan out and what I wanted to do.

With my whole career and industry of choice still on hold, what better time to explore different options.

Then it happened. I started doing embroidery. Just a couple of small pieces first to give to someone as a gift, but it grew and grew, and I just fell in love with it. More than anything, I love how I feel when I get to do something creative – it seems to be when I am at my happiest and most relaxed too. It is a cathartic process.

So that was it! I wondered what I could do as a career which didn’t feel like it was work, which I enjoyed, looked forward to doing and had as little stress as I could. Because after all this work on myself, why would I want to go back to causing myself more harm than good.

I took matters into my own hands, took on two part time jobs and decided to start my own business as well! And so Made by Miri was born!

I’m fully aware that without the support from my partner and family, this may not have been possible at this time because I am still a realist and understand that money does still make the world go round. Therefore, I am incredibly lucky. But I am SO excited to see what is in store for my future and how I will continue to grow as a person who has chosen to look after their mental health.

Thank you for joining me on this journey!

Much love and see you again at the same time next month.

Made by Miri x

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